wow haven't posted for so many days already..yet another week is over...oh dear :(
mon was crazy man...major maths s headache..sat in the canteen for 3 hours attempting to finish it before the lecture itself. glad i did, if not i wouldn't have understood a single part of the lecture which went at a disgustingly fast pace. sigh sheesh. but i like maths s! the satisfaction u get when u can solve a problem (although that's like really seldom, but still *grinses*)...it's fantastic! :)
yesterday was fun though :) had, as usual, nice lesson with laoshi...she let us hear a recording of a song she sang live on radio! wah super cool..great voice! then there was the "bie2 zou3" song which had me in tears..super sad, really touching. wish i had that kind of talent to compose and sing like that :)
last day of the school week today...completely tired out. erm i think mr chan saw me dozing off during practical right in front of him *sheepish* haha had fun catching tadpoles though! found them in this puddle of water on the grass, then afraid that when the water dries up, they'll die...so came up with a not-so-good idea to catch them and save them haha..in the end, 3 out of 4 died in the span of 3 hours. argh! tadpole-killer! *guilts* sigh yet another proof that animals and me just don't go together...i remember when i was young, nothing i kept stayed alive for very long :(
lots and lots of things to do...first on my list: catching up on homework and lecture notes. sheesh. one month has passed, and i still have no clue about what the first lecture was about...things are that bad! panic attacks every now and then these days *shudder* scared! :(
+ serene @ 11:00 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 11:00 PM
yihan's and xinquan's birthday chalet party last night was fun!!! :) trip to the chalet was fraught with much danger though, under the pouring rain and failed attempts to keep the bags from soaking wet.
oh yes, and we mustn't forget yihan's birthday present (a nice *white* shirt) which got ahem spilled with miranda orange that came from a particular bottle that was not closed properly. *laughs* gosh totally hysterical when i saw the "damage", rushed downstairs to wash it immediately. argh there goes a nice *dry*, *new* shirt *grinses* luckily it was fine and was dry by the end of the night (or morning rather)! yaay :)
attempts to bbq the chicken, sausages, satay, fish (or pppppisssshh haha) with master chef shane a.k.a. maritess (*grinses*) went rather well i thought *grinses* at least most of the food wasn't burnt and was in fact, quite edible! yay no stomachaches or anything so that's good :) then there was the lovely swensen's ice-cream cake which yihan's parents got. yummy :) hope the photos turn out ok! haha sheesh, are girls the only people who bring cameras?! then had a mahjong session (extremely short) with yihan, changmou and yuanhong, where yihan got a 8 tai win and then a 5 tai win again i think. haha sheeesh. luck, or is it skill, is definitely on the birthday boy's side :)
migrated upstairs to witness x-box play (halo) in action. must admit to being totally confused. i'll never get how multi-player games work haha *sheepish* attempted to play it with shane after the rest trooped downstairs to play mahjong with real (!!) money...the game didn't last very long as expected. what can i say...i suck at all computer games, especially anything to do with war combat haha sigh :)
by the time all that was over, it was like past 12 midnight already...gosh time really really flies. went for a walk with shane and his huge trusty umbrella along the beach..gosh i love nighttime walks in the rain...weather was just so cool and perfect with strong cold refreshing breezes, night sky was reddish, the pretty lights of ships, the fantastic beach...can't remember the last time i was at the beach man..must have been 2/3 years ago at least, or more? and have never ever been to the beach at night/morning, so yesterday was a first. trooped happily on the wet sand, got as close to the waves as safety would allow..yay splashing in the waves was so fun! just when you think they aren't gonna be huge ones, the really huge ones come and just surprise you! found something sticking out of the sand, looked really like legs of a crab, but upon further inspection and digging and pulling it out, it was a seaside plant with shoots and roots which had me totally fascinated :) brought it back to show the rest and scare them with it *grinses* must have walked like half the east coast beach yesterday...saw many many interesting things that will take too long to say here but it was totally fun! i feel like i have just relived my childhood, seriously. :)
big thanks to yihan and xinquan for their party that saved my rather dreary cny!!! :)
+ serene @ 3:32 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 3:32 PM
i'm feeling loved and cherished by God, more so than ever. God has heard my calls, and ever so quickly He has responded and answered my prayers. it's really amazing how God works his wonders to bring about so-called coincidences in life, but are really planned schemes put into action by Him. it's so true that if you believe in Him, and ask for His help, He will help you and be there for you, just like He has been there for me this time yet again, and all other times too. i guess i'm just glad to get what i needed from God.
“I have observed the misery of my people who are in Egypt; I have heard their cry on account of their taskmasters. Indeed, I know their sufferings, and I have come down to deliver them.” - Exodus 3:7-8
+ serene @ 12:00 AM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 12:00 AM
fun today! short day in school today, had so much fun and laughter during bio lecture (erps maybe i was supposed to be listening, but haha sigh *grinses*). gosh laughed so much during it, and even out loud once (how embarrassing!), terrible me. luckily there isn't any bio lectures until after chinese new year, so that gives me time for recovery man :)
after school, learning journey to body worlds! heh exhibits were quite interesting..but it got kind of boring after a while cos most of the exhibits were just the same parts of the body displayed, just in a different stance or something. the foetuses ones were quite sad though, all those deformities and the knowledge that they didn't make it through. but i guess the nus pathology museum was many many times much worse than these.
haha took rather long looking at all the exhibits, so some of the class left before us for dinner, and later, we (yihan, shane and i) went to suntec! (shuwan and pam deserted us halfway?!) was supposed to join the class for dinner, but both of them needed to do new year shopping, so shopping it was first. haha sheesh, always thought girls were the spendthrifts, but these two guys beat me definitely man...yihan with his 2 shirts from flash-and-splash with an ok-but-still-indecent price..haha luckily i persuaded him out of buying the shorts too! :) then there was shane's characteristic indulgence in food...chocolate this time, at my gosh Godiva, with a 7 dollar dark chocolate bar that tasted positively heavenly, all that richness and bitterness and sweetness melded together to give perfection. endorphins running high after one bite, so tempted to have more man...but considering it was 7 dollars, awwww...just couldn't bear to take another 50cent bite *grinses*
after all that, finally went to join class at marche...haha rather few people leh...there was milly, julie, weiqi, hweeying, michelle, kaihan, wilson, matthias and us. and they were almost done already when we got there *sheepish* pigged out again, what can i say man...first it was rosti, one plate per person...was already feeling rather full by then, but we got tempted to get a pizza and share...and then later, tempted again to get dessert...ice-cream with a chocolate brownie...argh chocolate again! luckily had ms poon PE lesson today man...if not i'll be feeling super guilty haha :) oh yes and shane's erm oyster (singular) swimming in lemon juice. the epitomy of slimy-ness urgh :) stomach felt weird after the sweet-salty-sweet-salty interchange (chocolate, rosti, ice-cream, pizza), still feeling rather weird in fact. but worth it :)
went off after the meal to look at shoes! sheesh still can't find a pair of nice shoes that are presentable and not too expensive hrmph. well at least shane got his pair of nice shoes...white, black and red...quite nice! haha sighs i'm such a shopping loser!
haha enjoyed myself a lot today man..thanks guys :)
+ serene @ 10:47 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 10:47 PM
a deadlock chess game, forsaken and forgotten by the players. not a step taken forward, backward, just a standstill, just silence, just...that. and impossible to make a move at all, for anything done will not affect a thing at all. a truth, a facade, reality, pretence? with strength, or with vulnerability? a trial, or an impossibility? eyes shut, lips sealed, an indestructible wall, a lifetime. the permanence of it all frightens me. and to have to continue with this, so tiring it's almost unthinkable, inconceivable.
+ serene @ 6:27 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 6:27 PM
erm previous post was a little on the depressing side. but i guess i'm already one of the luckier ones who have great friends surrounding me, so for that i'm thankful! :) yay shall think positive happy thoughts, cos as long as there are any at all, and there is, then life is great! :D
we're really gonna paint the classroom! shane and i asked mr kong today, and he agreed! yay he rocks :) problem now is the colour...which of course, no one can ever agree on...will it be a nice orange, a light pink, apple-green, light blue or yellow? will there be pictures (my flowers!) or will it be blank? haha sighs so difficult to decide man...must ask class tomorrow and of course our dear treasurer *grin* can't decide on a painting day either...haha sheesh. next tues probably erps.
wah real dilemma about chinese man...can't bear to leave laoshi...she was so sad today when we told her we were thinking of stopping chinese. laoshi's one of the best teachers i've ever had, and her lessons are the most enjoyable lessons in the whole world man...so stress-relieving too with all that fun and laughter (and shane's and yihan's corny chinese jokes *grin*), but if majority of the class is quitting, then the atmosphere won't be the same anymore! :( really don't know what to do...really don't want to quit :( i think one of my best memories of rj would be her chinese lessons...sighs.
stayed in school until 7 plus today, attempting to do work, but being not exactly very successful with that haha sighs. so many more tutorials to do..like that dreaded maths s tutorial (still almost completely untouched) and maths chapter 17 tutorial, P and C assignment and chem arenes tutorial urgh. oh and the book review i still owe mrs lim bleah! work's just coming in in torrents, and stress is just increasing by the day argh! what with teachers telling us that there'll be lecture tests coming up soon...must really really start studying hard man...must must! for the sake of my new year's resolutions! :)
+ serene @ 12:01 AM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 12:01 AM
laoshi was telling us her story about her group of friends, and i thought it was really really sad :( but true, we really should always cherish people around us, and let them know that we do. kind of like that "love actually" story with a more tragic ending. don't really know how to respond to this actually...i guess i just wanna say how much i treasure each and every one of my friends around me who never fail to brighten up my day, and i guess you'll know who you are. *hugs*
i think life is getting more and more confusing and baffling with each day. so many things changing, so many people changing, it's hard to keep up with everything and get used to those changes. i'm really really tired of trying to do that, of trying to understand that these changes are expected, when i don't really think so at all. why do we have to change at all? why can't we just remain as innocent and pure-hearted as we all once were, and be less concerned about material things, image, and well, just things that don't really matter in life, not that much anyway? why don't people understand that sometimes, a few encouraging words can mean and do more than expensive presents, or lavish gifts? i guess i'm more than generalising here, there's many around me who still understand the value of true friendship and what it really means. but idealistic me can't help but feel disappointed that it's not everyone who thinks this way. friendship's about listening, about encouraging, about just being there for each other, and not so much of measuring how good a friend you are by how much you spend on her. blinking back tears of disillusionment and of disappointment today in school, i guess that was part of the reason for feeling rather down.
things change, but sometimes, things inevitably come a full circle, and you'll find yourself back where you were, as lost and confused as you once were before. sinking into a swirling whirlpool each day, and i feel so much like a pawn in a chess game, unable to control the many greater influences around me. and the more i try to, the worse it gets, with those influences rampaging my beautifully-crafted game. perhaps the key is to just not try. but to turn to apathy as a solution, that's really quite sad, when you don't even know whether it's a necessity or not, whether it will work or not, or whether it will just exacerbate all the already existing problems. i just want to sweep all the game pieces off the chessboard, to just put aside all the confusion, to steer towards more pressing issues than those.
being rather reflective today, but still not as reflective as i would like to be here. so many unspoken thoughts still left in my mind, but it's just too difficult to express them in black and white. this year's a bad year for reflections actually. everyone's just too busy with school and work and there's really not much time to sit down and just talk with your friends, so there's really a lot that needs to be said, but just isn't.
just gave away this song a few days ago, but it seems i'm the one who needs it more now than ever.
HOLDING OUT HOPE TO YOU --- Michael English
I know you tried it all
In your search for the truth
Somehow you've fallen for a lie
You're trying to recall the simple ways
Of your youth
Where your faith is strong
And you'll never ever question why
But you found out life wasn't easy
Sometimes the answers were hard to see
You didn't have the strength for
One more try
(chorus)
I'll be holding out hope to you
Even when this world
breaks your heart in two
When your life is consumed by
Your fear and your doubts
I'll be holding out hope to you
In the stillness of the night
There's a voice calling you
Seems as though you've heard it
once before
In the darkness there's a light
And a hand to lead you through
To the hope that waits beyond
the open door
And you found out life is worth living
And the answers lie where
your faith begins
It's there you find the strength for
one more try
chorus (twice)
When your life is consumed by your
fear and your doubts
I'll be holding out hope to you
I'll be holding out hope to you
+ serene @ 10:51 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 10:51 PM
rather usual/nice day today...pe in the morning, did 2.4km..oh man my timing sucks..:(
then during recess, panic for shane and i...cos civics was coming up haha...and we were totally unprepared..thank goodness we managed to get it done last minute and it went okie..yay cleared! :) quite a few funny moments today too :) first it was shuwan's self-made joke *grinses* it's really quite good lah! :) then there was shane's madness session with his ahem self-made dangly earrings...haha i should put the photo up here man *grinses* hilarity on my part when i heard about bush all over again (3L inside joke heh) and of course yihan's fantastic joke man...and he pulls it off with great imitations too *beam*...going like this: What do you get when you pour chlorine over a row of McDonald's hamburgers?
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Mclaurin's Series!!! hahaha :D
that one's really a classic man..
back to school after lunch at ghim moh...sat in the canteen learning physics and chem, then tried solving the maths s tutorial, first question may i add, for about an hour. (in addition to the past hour i spent the other day attempting it as well). sheesh. can anyone say: MATHS S DISASTER?! sighs. and after all that effort...shane managed to solve it! yay and we felt stupid after that. sighs. well only another 10 and a half more questions to go...good luck to all who are going through the same agony haha..:)
legs aching like crazy, i think it's my shins suffering the after-effects of running. erps. darn. thankfully, deep heat is there to save the day! hehe =]
yay can't wait for tomorrow...chinese! and gp video! :)
+ serene @ 9:28 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 9:28 PM
happening day today! bought new year clothes, AND new phone! 3200!! woohoo super happy...got built-in camera finally! took a photo of my angel piglet which is now my wallpaper! oh how sweet...should put angel eeyore and angel piglet together, buy angel pooh and angel tigger, and they can take family photo! erm okies that sounded just a *little* on the weird side, but i can't help it...too happy about my new phone :)
was just watching the ren ci show on tv...and the ice monk stunt. *brrr* can't imagine man...especially since i freeze everyday in LT1 and TS 16...imagine being put in a container of ice eeks.
back to school tomorrow...yay :)
+ serene @ 10:08 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 10:08 PM
haha school once again today :)
nice 2.4km run with sunny this morning while waiting for bio soc and chorale to start yay =] then went for bio soc, then chorale sectionals, then went to run intervals again during lunch break. saw liangyuan after the run, chatted for a while, and seeing that i wasn't eating anything, he quietly went to buy food for me and treated me to a drink too! haha thanks man...so nice of him...greatly appreciated, that food pulled me through chorale pract in the afternoon :) 2 SLs were on mc today, so there was 4 altos altogether. rather scary, cos we were like trying to sing so so loud so as not to get drowned out by everyone else. gosh.
+ serene @ 9:14 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 9:14 PM
after the week-long euphoria and high-ness i was experiencing, i finally flopped today. so so tired, with a headache the whole day, just wanted to curl up and sleep the day away, but was instead stuck with 2 pracs and many many tutorials. should have just taken blue slip and gone home, but didn't want to cos there was bio s after school...completely lousy company today, just couldn't take the effort to say much, half the time i was looking just stoned. i declare today my worst day of jc life so far haha sighs. gosh and the week isn't over...there's still prac in school tomorrow. really really so so tired sighs.
wanted to go for o-nite but again, was too tired to! :(
oh yes, and maths s is so hard man....tutorial's just crazy! in complete "bliss". translated: complete ignorance haha :)
need to rejuvenate myself for the next week...paint classroom soon!
+ serene @ 9:11 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 9:11 PM
oh fantastic the o-team people came back for lessons today! yay finally our class is complete *beams* more people = more fun! fun chem lecture, not listening to it, and catching up with yihan and his absolute need to shop, at the same time keeping a watchful eye on shane, hoping fervently that he falls asleep. which he didn't in the end that evil guy, whom shuwan, rosie and i now owe a drink each. sheesh. of all the lectures to stay awake, like practically 0 percent chance of him staying awake, and he had to for this. haha *laughs* then there was fun chinese lesson! laoshi's so so nice man...can't bear to stop taking lessons with her, but really don't wanna take chinese anymore...sighs. went through the ao chinese paper, which i think i really screwed up. there goes one year of chinese again :( well yups lots of fun today, especially in chinese :)
collapsing with exhaustion man...gosh went crazy with running today haha...first was ms poon's 5 rounds and drills during pe, then after school was another 10 rounds with shane, with 2 walking rounds. peng sang liao *grinses* but couldn't help it man...weather was so nice and cooling after the rain, how not to take this wonderful opportunity? and i think endorphins are addictive. the rush you get when u're so so tired, and then u finally get to stop...whoa nothing beats that feeling. was rather strange running around and around the track, with all the j1s gathered at the field staring at us though *shudder* and later, the junior class too. :) haha the gathering didn't go too badly...had some really funny stuff and dares *grinses* poor jerold :)
end of another week again. plein d'amusant :) full of fun this past week. o-nite tomorrow! perhaps i'll go crash yihan's and julie's og :) and hopefully can dance our batch dance again! =]
+ serene @ 11:52 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 11:52 PM
nice first few days at school! typical, but quite smooth, with the exception of clueless physics lectures (but that has always been the case anyway, so.) and struggling bio tutorials. j2's rather frantic, i realise that now. our breaks have been cut down by so many, that up to now, i haven't yet sat down and had a proper meal with the class! it's like tutorial after tutorial, lecture after lecture, homework after homework. not forgetting run after run, swim after run. whoa physically exhausting. haven't done much on the homework side *sheepish*, but the library now is a great place, with so few people in it at any one time. must grasp this opportunity before the J1s discover it and take over the place heh.
nice chat i just had with rosie and shuwan online. very interesting friends i have, with very interesting lives *grinses*
+ serene @ 11:30 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 11:30 PM
oh finally it was back to school yesterday. happy! :)
rather nice day :) celebrated mr chan's bday, which took up about 40 mins (1 period), so we unfortunately ate up one whole period of his. ahem. how terrible sad *grinses* lessons as usual, rather unbelievable, lectures while we hear the cheering OGs outside. haha sheesh. homework on the first day! unbelievable. sadist. sigh. and to my worst fears, there's gonna be common tests in march! and july! like argh! must must must stick to my after-promos resolutions *laughs*
+ serene @ 10:40 AM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 10:40 AM
happy new year! :)
haha rather interesting day today, or rather yesterday, the last day of the year. went to orchard to meet rosie (who had funky accessories from hongkong! *grinses*) and shane for a movie, but first met ad and rosie for lunch at cafe cartel. brings back fond memories of attempting to mug for o-levels there with a few others, but unsuccessfully of course. :) ordered two set meals, but nothing much i can say. food quality definitely does not equal price. take it whatever way you like *grinses* (so i can avoid being sued here haha) right then adeline's friend kumweng came too and joined us for lunch. well apparently ns men earn $350 a month! that's quite a good pay man...i mean, like meals included and all? haha not that i'm volunteering my services, but it's quite a good deal i think for a bad situation :)
yups and shane came later, presented me with a very veerrrrry interesting pamphlet he received. hmm darn. i should have kept it for laughs man *grinses* what with "new sensations" (ooh) and "privacy" oh man...*laughs* haha can't believe the person gave it to him...21 years old? :) always thought appearances were deceiving, but perhaps not in this case here :D
tried to get movie tickets and couldn't! all sold out! at plaza sing, and at orchard cine too! sighs. i'm such a loser. urgh. so no movie, sad :( ah well. all because of our non-initiative to buy tickets huh *grinses* so walked around with rosie and shane, and we decided to pop over to wheelock place....went borders, which got shane really worked up because the calvin and hobbs comic book he just bought this month was at a price about 20 bucks cheaper than what he got it for. erm whoops. *pats on back* sad...then went to dome, in search for the famous fries. went in, discovered that we were like 5 minutes too late, and they didn't serve them anymore. sighs :) went on to spend 30 bucks on clam strips, pizza and cheese cake. oh gosh. huge expenditure. my apologies guys :) and please don't ever order the clam strips when you go to dome, it's a horrendously-small serving! nice but small! for 8 bucks! like can finish-in-one-bite kind of small! haha oh dear. but yup enjoyed myself, not including the spending of course, but heck. it's the last day of hols, almost, who knows when the next time i go to orchard might be sighs.
came home after that, for bbq-cum-countdown party...haha was too stuffed after outing to eat much sighs. yups happy new year to all! many many new year blessings to all, and may everyone be happy in the new year! :) thanks for all the new year wishes from all, krishna, kev, val, shuwan...greatly appreciated thanks guys :)
oh yes one more thing. haha for 3L people :) ordered a small half kg cake for mr chan's bday on first day of school. asked them to make it with less sugar, taking into consideration that he can't eat sugary sweet stuff. yups nothing special, just the normal black forest cake, but i guess we can take it as like haha celebrating our return to wonderful school! *grinses*
well, running schedule commences immediately on first day of school. can't wait to see my darling track again...i missed you so much! it's been an absolute torture without you *kisses the ground* :)
+ serene @ 1:16 AM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 1:16 AM
i am
ant writing revived
sunny
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j(ad)ed
crys
jen
ili
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hon
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shuwan
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pam
chiara
serene (lee)
shishi
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hongking
jingjing
yaozong
huileng
zhiyin
christelle
sabrina
rosie
the tucksombong gang! :)
tzeyeong
audrey
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