whee just came back from window shopping with yihan today after choir...super tired from the choir pract where i just sat there and did nothing since i had no voice today, and attempting to not get caught in the pouring rain, which of course was a futile attempt with ahem yihan's absolutely-trusty umbrella hahaha...k..but better than no umbrella at all :)
went to queensway to look at shoes (and luckily i didn't spot the bag i have always wanted muahahah, if not i'll be feeling real regretful that i bought another one already)...yar so we spent like 2/3 hours walking around looking for shoes...and yihan finally narrowed it down to two choices. that in itself is a great acheivement haha..considering how many he had in the first place. torn between two..shoes. terrible dilemma. what to do? inspiration from last night's holland v struck. toss a coin! and that we did indeed. to decide whether or not to buy, and to decide which one to buy. (though i vaguely recall *someone* didn't take the coin's decision in the end huh *grinses*) ah well...glad that at least one of us bought something...my favourite teva sandals are still stuck at a disgusting price of 107 bucks...or rather 65 bucks after discount. still..heh =]
moved on to heavenly ikea after that! so many many beautiful things to see sighs. was looking at all the fantastic children bedroom display sets...and wishing i was a child again man...they're so heavenly! like a dream come through! i'm tempted to heck care and just get the whole set man...=] dinner wasn't too bad...spagetthi was quite tasty...charmed sounded interesting...oh yes, and bought a pot of african violets for my mom *grinses*
i lost my voice! sheesh.
i love "what sweeter music". lyrics are beautiful. somehow when the basses come in with their part, i just feel like crying. there're just some songs that will always remain a favourite after many years, and this will definitely be one of mine. simply can't get it out of my head.
"why does the chilling winter's morn
Smile, like a field beset with corn?
Or smell like a meadow newly shorn
Thus on the sudden? Come and see
The cause why things thus fragrant be..."
maybe it's the lyrics. but it can't be since the other recordings i've heard of other choirs just don't affect me at all. or maybe it's the way they sing it. i don't know. just know that whenever i hear it, never fails to make me start tearing. sighs. or maybe it's the piano playing as well. absolutely beautiful. somehow the song makes one think back, reminisce of absolute and innocent happiness, pure in itself, even though the lyrics have nothing much to do with anything. it's powerful in that way i guess, and perhaps that is it. or perhaps it's just the voice.
+ serene @ 11:17 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 11:17 PM
oh yay nice time today :) yihan and shuwan just left about an hour ago, after 4-5 hr of mahjong, holland v, attempts to play the piano, talking and punk'd. and of course a lot of food prepared by my wonderful mom *grinses* learnt a lot of new interesting ways to play mahjong today, all those new rules imposed on our game heh such that 10 tai2 was amount to $204.80. not that we ever reached it...the most was 7 tai2, yihan and i. haha not bad not bad...too bad shane missed it today.
tennis on sat! hopefully i can hit the ball argh. i think i should practice at least once before i play with THE pro. eeks. i dun think i managed to learn anything from my crash course in tennis in sec 4 sad...it wasn't the instructor, it was just my general sense of bad hand-eye coordination and bad ball sense. sighs. exactly the same reason why i suck at anything that has to do with a racket and a ball sheesh. *thinks squash and tennis*
really really tempted to order the plush toy cuddles from the happy tree friends online store thing, but i'm just afraid of what the shipping cost might be. dun think federal expresses charges cheaply for air travel sigh. hopefully they start selling it in singapore, and we can all get on-the-surface-ly cute soft toys that actually can have gruesome stuff happening to that (though i have no idea what - it's supposed to be a secret according to the website heh)
kk...enough fun to last me one week heh. back to work tomorrow until fri :)
+ serene @ 11:41 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 11:41 PM
first day at DSTA job-shadowing today! haha i declare DSTA is a fantastic organisation man. first thing they did when we went there was to give us so many free gifts *laughs* then we had a nice reception too. then 2 hours later, for lunch, my mentor informed me that lunch for all 4 days was on DSTA, and we could eat anything and everything and it'll all be charged to the company. and then she brought me to a restaurant that sells gelato (!!) icecream and brownies (!!!) and lots of stuff...woohoo. but of course, i wasn't that evil to finish off the gelato in that place haha...must help DSTA save money, it's public funds anyway.
then got to go listen to a product presentation..this company was trying to sell one of their system "************" to DSTA...oh it's not released yet and supposed to be kept secret haha that's why the censored part *laughs*. then they were trying to negotiate the price and all that...so exciting :) the company's tactics were terrible man...lousy bargaining and refusal to compromise and trying to play hard to get so obviously *laughs* sheesh :)
rather fun i must say. next 3 days should be too. :)
+ serene @ 11:54 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 11:54 PM
msn messanger games are addictive! just got off (note: it's 3.19am argh!) playing a 2hr/3hr session with nocturnal singyong. sheesh. but oh what fun! what with solitaire, minesweeper, bejeweled...woohoo i hereby declare i'm addicted. =]
oh yes and new happy tree friends episode is out. super gross yucks.
i wonder if their plush toys are available in Singapore..would love a Cuddles one :)
haha better scram now..
+ serene @ 3:22 AM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 3:22 AM
super bored with the hols. what happened to all the holiday plans, my number 1-6 plans?? dissolved! all because of the upcoming SATs, and work attachments. then again, all is not without hope. possibility of mahjong session this upcoming wed if all goes well, and the other three can make it. *crossed fingers* one can only take so much of reading word list after word list of foreign words.
diabolical plan in place! shhhhh. =]
perhaps today is the day. the day where all has already been revealed, and there's absolutely nothing left to know, nothing left to discover, nothing more i can say. all illusions are gone, destroyed, left with a clearer than before view and understanding, and nothing could take away that. don't want it to be taken away anyway, for it's much better this way. asking myself how, but i already know the answer to it. regrets? a little, undeniably, but i've gained a lot even after walking away from all this. learned much more about myself, learned much more about others, learned how this world is full of paradoxes and opposites, good vs bad, altruistism vs egoism, reality vs falsifications. so perhaps having learned all these, i've gained, and perhaps it was just another lesson disguised in this particular form. better now than later. better later than never.
don't know what else to say. today has left me shaken and a little stricken. perhaps it's the effect of so many lessons in one night, but then again, haven't i already known some of these, or rather, most of these before tonight? i have, and my choice was to ignore. to overlook. to make excuses for. the choice was mine, and who could say for sure whether it was right or wrong? had i taken the alternative, would it have been easier? but we'll never know, and we don't really need to know.
tonight was the last straw. i think that explains it all.
lost for words. i think i need to sleep this off.
+ serene @ 11:04 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 11:04 PM
*yawns*
i'll never get through the 3500 word list heh :)
addicted to cantonese serials! been watching one vcd after another in an attempt to pick up a little of the language, and it's working a little! haha at least when i close my eyes and listen to the dialogue, it makes more sense than it did before yay. and the show's so good too *beams* oh no wonder i can't get preparation for SATs done. :)
fruitful shopping yesterday! muahaha so happy with all the stuff i bought, and even spotted a bag that i quite liked! dun know whether to get it or not though, it's still not the nike one i had in mind but nowhere to be found.
movies! i wanna watch lots and lots of movies! cold creek manor, and the looney tunes one, and the brother bear one. haha whoops my mental age is showing *grinses*
k as everyone can probably see, i'm totally, absolutely, completely bored out of my mind that i've resorted to updating a totally, absolutely, completely useless entry. *laughs*
+ serene @ 11:34 AM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 11:34 AM
sigh. not a good day. totally.
pathetic french AO paper in the morning, and my results are gonna be just as pathetic. still feeling rather down about it, but it's over and what can i do? ironic that we had to write an essay on what true happiness was, and that evil question is the cause of my unhappiness now. comprehension wasn't much better either, sighs, what can i say? screwed up majorly. always seem to do that for major tests dun i? :(
pw wasn't fantastic either. quite screwed for it as well. the only thing worth being happy about is that file's finally done. even that can't cheer me up today. just wanna forget about the french paper i screwed up. screeewwwwwed up. *closes eyes in disgust at myself* argh forget forget forget!!! even the ice-cream and food at swensen's today didn't cheer me up much. haha sorry to all who were there, wasn't very good company man sighs.
really need a run tomorrow to get all the frustration out. sigh sigh sigh :(
oh what a blue post today.
+ serene @ 11:37 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 11:37 PM
argh major panic.
a few hours ago, i thought the pw file could be considered done, and ready to be handed up once the pages are paginated.
now, after having looked at the group project file checklist, i realise, belatedly that we haven't done quite a lot of things! like we didn't evaluate accuracy and limitations of source, didn't add in our oral presentation plans, didn't annotate on all drafts, detailing the necessary ammendments... *sniffs*
lots to be done on thurs :( i guess that means no more celebration at ian's parents' restaurant :(
AO french in 4 hours. urghurghurgh. :)
+ serene @ 9:41 AM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 9:41 AM
pw file = madness. and i do mean, madness literally, not figuratively. feel my mind scrambling into a mess again. the vibes from the pw file are simply too too overpowering. sighs. just spent the entire evening, NOT watching television, NOT playing computer games, NOT preparing for french on wed and thurs, but doing the file instead. sheeeesh. really can't wait for friday to come so i can hand up this dreaded evil object and never see it in my entire life ever again. do i sound rattled? dun get me wrong. i get a great "sens de satisfaction" from seeing what used to be an almost empty file now filled with articles until we had to purchase a new file when the old one just collapsed on us. and dun get me wrong, i love pw. i do. (and as shane would say.."*rolls eyes in disgust*") hahaha...who am i kidding really. *grinses*
k...shall make a trip down to school tomorrow for fun. i'm wilting at home, with nothing to do except pw and french. hope there're people in school tomorrow! and shall make good use of the laser printing in school for all the stacks of pw stuff to reprint, since most are like so so crumpled and tattered and with all my flower doodlings haha sighs :)
"I did my best
But I guess my best wasn't good enough
'Cause here we are back where we were before
Seems nothing ever changes
We're back to being strangers
Wondering if we oughta stay
Or head on out the door
Just once can't we figure out what we keep doing wrong
Why we never last for very long
What are we doing wrong
Just once can't we find a way to finally make it right
Make the magic last for more than just one night
If we could just get to it
I know we could break through it
I gave my all
But I think my all may have been too much
'Cause Lord knows we're not getting anywhere
Seems we're always blowing whatever we got going
And seems at times with all we've got
We haven't got a prayer
Just once can't we figure out what we keep doing wrong
Why the goodtimes never last for very long
Seems we're always blowing
Whatever we got going
Just once can't we find a way to finally make it right
Make the magic last for more than just one night
If we could just get to it
I know we could break through it
Just once I want to understand
Why it always come back to good-bye
Why can't we get ourselves in hand
And admit to one another
That we're no good with out the other
Take the best and make it better
Find a way to stay together
Just once can't we find a way to finally make it right
Make the magic last for more than just one night
I know we can break through it
If we could just get to it
Just once
If we could get to it
Just Once..."
+ serene @ 12:28 AM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 12:28 AM
matrix was...how should i put it. inevitable that i watch it, since i already watched the first two, but somehow it's really not as good as expected. or rather, hoped. sighs. and the most surprising thing was going to the cinema, and finding out that seats available were in excess supply, and we could choose to our preference. haha and here i thought they would all be sold out huh. :)
squash and run today! productive man *grinses* oh wilson's squash is like damn pro whoa...so impressed while he was kindly warming up the ball for me haha. so paiseh playing in full view of everyone. when ms poon walked past and saw me, i just cringed man, and waved sheepishly to her. argh :) have accumulated a total of 3 blisters on my right palm as a result of that squash session, cos the lousy racket hold is like tearing apart and i need a replacement man. oh yes, and a *burst*ball too. haha not that i hit it too hard, which is the natural conclusion everyone comes to, it's just that the ball is too old man. woohoo i need to shop for new squash ball and racket hold.
so so tired during chorale today. sitting there, i nearly collapsed, and the only thing keeping me upright was the thought of my dismal end should i unfortunately drift off into sleepland. and still had pw session after that. oh yes, and had to climb over the school gate sheesh! they locked it up before 6??? terrifying experience, but there's a first for everything haha, and this is it man. *shiver*
gah. really nothing much to say sadly. nothing interesting to put down, nothing interesting happened, it's been one typically non-school boring day. sighs.
一了百了- SHIN
一辈子两个人在一起 你说要加个或许 不是你不喜欢甜言和蜜语
只是你比较实际 两个人一辈子不分离 你问我好在哪里
不是你不期待永恒的恋曲 你说最美的爱情叫回应
为何连分手都不跟我争吵 撂下一句话就想逃跑 让我
爱难平 情难灭 梦难了 心难过 你却放手 一了百了
离开我你说是为了我好 可知道这句话伤人不少 就算忘不了
没有大不了 反正一切都不再重要 我的心既然你全都不了
何必再继续彼此困扰 斩断纠缠的爱 从今就一了百了
+ serene @ 10:57 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 10:57 PM
chinese tomorrow! feeling rather slack today though...me thinks all the chinese over the past few days have rendered me rather numbed to the whole exam and all, that i simply can't bring myself to do anymore of it. which was why i was just slacking around in school, running my record 12 rounds with shane (thanks man! :)) and feeling rather good and exhilarant at the end of it woohoo :) the rounds are slowly increasing, and suddenly 5km for aquathalon next year no longer seems as daunting as it did this year! *grinses*
oh yes, we're officially the last group in RJ presenting for pw...the VP had to specially put in an extra one hour slot for us, cos we had to change day. really sorry to shane's and julie's group for having to make them stay back an extra hour to watch us present. then again, i'm really happy our classmates are gonna to be the audience. at least we can be assured that nothing unexpected will happen, and we'll have their support *beam*
don't know what i'm gonna do after chinese tomorrow. was thinking of just staying in school and getting pe department to open up the squash courts for me or something, but somehow it seems quite anticlimax after an AO exam. but then again, it isn't really over tomorrow, with french haunting me day and night, and the constant pricking of my irritating conscience to do something about my deteriorating french! but lunch and movie tomorrow beckons, and it's how much more exciting than staying in school and waiting for french lesson to arrive. haha we should all follow what our hearts tell us to do right? out it is then! *beams*
成语 of the day : 一枝独秀!
善良, 充满温心, 爱心的人在这个世界简直是一枝独秀, 令我佩服得五体投地.
really rather humbled in the face of all this. and feel rather lacking, and that i'm really just not good enough, and that there's still a long way to go. but better late than never :)
+ serene @ 8:59 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 8:59 PM
school's almost over! *sniff* a bleak next one and a half months i would think. hols are so so packed, there's practically not a day when i can stay at home and erm, sleep :) there's like SATs, chorale, internship, work attachment, oh the list goes on forever. so many things i want to do besides that, like:
1. RUN *bwahaha*
2. squash! sighs haven't played for soooo long, i bet i carn even get the ball to come back to me :(
3. movies and more movies!
4. mahjong! (it's only a few days after pw u guys...after french...not a very long time to wait wot *grinses*)
5. sssshhhhhhoooooppppppiiiiinnnnnggggg! (and actually buying things instead of merely *looking* haha) wanna get a new bag, new shops, new clothes....oooh.
6. and oh yes, how can i forget swimming haha...
pw file's giving me the biggest headache of my entire life, i swear. somehow the prospect of finishing all the evaluation of sources, analysis and summary of sources, updating individual contributions, doing necessary "minutes" on our drafts and the changes we made, tidying up the file, numbering all the 300 plus pages seems all not too possible in the few days there's left, considering there's chinese, french and oral presentation to worry about. but! everything will be fine in the end :)
开心! 今天的种种琐事, 看来只是琐事, 但它有能力让我豁然开朗, 从见光明. 谢谢我生命中的开心果, 总有办法使我开心的开心果. 觉得自己好幸福, 身边围绕着从天而降的天使.
+ serene @ 9:32 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 9:32 PM
oral presentation tomorrow! hope everything goes as well as it can be :)
and yay back to school tomorrow! can't stand weekends stranded at home with absolutely nothing to do. well, actually there's plenty to do, with pw and chinese and french, but seriously, that isn't considering *doing* something. haha what can i say. just can't wait to get back tomorrow and see everyone again (i haven't for 3 days if you don't count sat!) and have fun during the 2hr chinese lesson yay. :)
hoho. so pleased with what i accomplished on sat. revenge has been taken on the culprit, and for once i wasn't the poor victim! hmm. then again, revenge on me was exacted almost at once. oh well, never knew pouncing could be so fun and addictive muahaha...*evil grinses*
与其藕断丝连, 不如一刀两断. 与其抚今追昔, 不如忘得一干二净. 何必承受这种切肤之痛, 到头来还不是满目疮痍呢? 但是, 解铃还得系铃人, 所以的确是孤掌难鸣. 眼不见为净, 但谋事在人, 成事在天, 谈得容易, 做的难. 有如堕五里雾中, 不知是一动不如一静好 还是化干戈为和平好.
+ serene @ 9:00 PM
* [ serene ] r e m e m b e r s again * 9:00 PM
i am
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